hiya my bpd fam
,
i really felt the need to tell you about a very odd, lucid dream i had last night (or this morning, rather)... i was honestly contemplating whether to share it or not, because people may just think i'm extremely weird, lol... and i'm always seen as quite odd to people
, but i know that everyone here doesn't judge me... and i also realized that i've
known that experiences like this have been linked to bpd.......
i'm not going to mention his name of course... but i had a dream that i met a guy for the first time... i don't think his age was said, but i think something was mentioned at one point about him being in high school!... he looked maybe about 18 or so in the dream... (i'm 22)... i knew his name in the dream... and his first and last names were very common ones, and his last name in fact was my maiden name... so, in the dream he was completely in love with me, but i had told him i was married... but i grew attached to him and really liked him as a friend... i hung out with him for a while... he gave me his phone number to keep in touch - he said he "wasn't from around here"... it was such a lucid dream that i remember what he looked like, remembered the phone number he gave me even, because in the dream i wrote it on my right hand!...
when i woke up, i had a really weird feeling about all of it... i looked up his name on my facebook, and like i said, it's a very common name but not too many of them came up... the one picture i found of the person with this name, was HIM... the guy from my dream... he looked exactly the same as in the dream... same big smile... a little facial hair... extremely friendly looking, almost innocent looking... right down to the dimples on his face, and snake bite piercings! (a lip ring on both sides of the lip - which i always wanted myself
lol)... also, if you understand asperger's syndrome, i'm not normally good at picking up on peoples' emotions or personalities, especially just
through a picture of course!, but i remember in the dream i was thinking he seemed/looked lost - emotionally... and i felt the same thing when i looked at his
picture.......
and for those of you who don't know facebook, i can't look up anything on his page, i would need to have him as a friend on it (which i will not do obviously)... but it did say he lives in "calgary, alberta canada"... and i looked up the area code and type of phone number he gave me in the dream, and i found that the number was that of calgary, alberta canada!...
since his last name was my maiden name, i had asked my mom if we have any known relatives in canada and she said "no"... (and like i said anyway, he was completely infatuated with me in the dream)... but i did vacation in canada a few times when i was a young kid, with my parents and brother....?
i know a lot of people aren't "believers" of this type of thing... but it cannot just be a coincidence!... you dream of what's in your conscience, and there must be some reason why he is in mine... i've read about experiences such as this one, in bpd (especially those who fit the "dissociation" of it - which i do)... and even when something this crazy does happen, what is the connection between you and the person you meet through it? he kind of reminded me of myself. can ANYONE relate???
hope everyone is well
hh.xx
,
i really felt the need to tell you about a very odd, lucid dream i had last night (or this morning, rather)... i was honestly contemplating whether to share it or not, because people may just think i'm extremely weird, lol... and i'm always seen as quite odd to people
, but i know that everyone here doesn't judge me... and i also realized that i've
known that experiences like this have been linked to bpd.......
i'm not going to mention his name of course... but i had a dream that i met a guy for the first time... i don't think his age was said, but i think something was mentioned at one point about him being in high school!... he looked maybe about 18 or so in the dream... (i'm 22)... i knew his name in the dream... and his first and last names were very common ones, and his last name in fact was my maiden name... so, in the dream he was completely in love with me, but i had told him i was married... but i grew attached to him and really liked him as a friend... i hung out with him for a while... he gave me his phone number to keep in touch - he said he "wasn't from around here"... it was such a lucid dream that i remember what he looked like, remembered the phone number he gave me even, because in the dream i wrote it on my right hand!...
when i woke up, i had a really weird feeling about all of it... i looked up his name on my facebook, and like i said, it's a very common name but not too many of them came up... the one picture i found of the person with this name, was HIM... the guy from my dream... he looked exactly the same as in the dream... same big smile... a little facial hair... extremely friendly looking, almost innocent looking... right down to the dimples on his face, and snake bite piercings! (a lip ring on both sides of the lip - which i always wanted myself
lol)... also, if you understand asperger's syndrome, i'm not normally good at picking up on peoples' emotions or personalities, especially just
through a picture of course!, but i remember in the dream i was thinking he seemed/looked lost - emotionally... and i felt the same thing when i looked at his
picture.......
and for those of you who don't know facebook, i can't look up anything on his page, i would need to have him as a friend on it (which i will not do obviously)... but it did say he lives in "calgary, alberta canada"... and i looked up the area code and type of phone number he gave me in the dream, and i found that the number was that of calgary, alberta canada!...
since his last name was my maiden name, i had asked my mom if we have any known relatives in canada and she said "no"... (and like i said anyway, he was completely infatuated with me in the dream)... but i did vacation in canada a few times when i was a young kid, with my parents and brother....?
i know a lot of people aren't "believers" of this type of thing... but it cannot just be a coincidence!... you dream of what's in your conscience, and there must be some reason why he is in mine... i've read about experiences such as this one, in bpd (especially those who fit the "dissociation" of it - which i do)... and even when something this crazy does happen, what is the connection between you and the person you meet through it? he kind of reminded me of myself. can ANYONE relate???
hope everyone is well
hh.xx
