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rocksrock	Lonely	Lead	[-]
Posts: 6 (10/27/09 22:44:47) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Tags : None Hi guys. I am feeling to lonely. More so at night. That is when things go down hill. I have trouble sleeping because I am coming off my quitiapean. It has made me put on so much weight I am so fat. But I cut FAT into my arm the other night.. I have cut for a while and have started up again. I feel lonely and loss. So yeah... feeling sad lost and SIing agian. Woohoo.
heavy heart		#1	[-]
Posts: 382 (10/28/09 16:17:01) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	rocksrock, i'm very sorry to hear you're si'ing again and you're feeling so badly... i hope today brought you a little relief after having a few bad nights... i know you feel alone - i always do too, constantly, especially since i don't really have friends... but i can assure you that we can all relate here and we're all supportive, so therefore, you're really not alone. we feel for you. i'm sorry you're upset about putting on some weight, but do not tell yourself you're fat... everyone is beautiful, really... because you're you, and you're special... i don't know if you see a therapist, but it sounds as though you have a psychiatrist at least, but either way, you need to bring your si'ing and negative emotions to a professional's attention... please don't let it go unmentioned! i'm very glad you wrote of it on here though, to vent a bit... vent all you need to!... but a professional also needs to know, if they don't already. i hope you're feeling better and remember you're not alone - although i know how it feels to be. you're strong, and you're special, don't forget it. xox
rocksrock		#2	[-]
Posts: 7 (10/28/09 21:59:30) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	Thank you heavy heart, its great to no there are people out there. I am still feeling low. They say loneliness is not a state of being. But I think it is.
amarnold	me too	#3	[-]
Posts: 95 (11/02/09 02:20:38) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	I used to carve the words Fat Bit*ch on my stomach. I had stopped SIing for about six or seven monrhs and now the urges are returning because I am feeling hopeless about my marriage. I take in so much verbal abuse that the SI allows me to be real again. I have to cut off my emotions and act as if the words dont hurt or matter and the pain allows me to come back. THe bad thing is I used to cut and burn every now and then. I prefer to burn now, its an intense pain that shocks my system. I light a cigerette and put it out on my body. If it doesn;t go out I keep pressing it to my skin until it finally goes out.
Cath37		#4	[-]
Posts: 8 (11/08/09 22:28:42) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	The thing about SI is that it only helps for a while. Meaning, it is like just putting on a bandaid on something far worse that is happening . Until it heals , however, then the urge is still there, and SI contiunues to to be all to pressing, and then once again, we do it for the relief , or for what we feel that is inside us , that needs to come out . Yes, I Self injure too. I do not want to glorifiy it either. I have Self harmed way too many times in my life for too many years. Yet it always takes hold of me, and I fall into the trap of self harm once again. The Self harm is severe , what I experience , and this is why I will not go into detail. It is intense, and very volitalie. Extreme form of multiation. However, it started out innocent enough. Now it is out of control, and so to those who do not think it could become as bad as it is for me, think again, it can. I also Self harm to lessser extent , and that is even more painful than the severe form . Anyway, In my opinion, i wish sometimes I had not started the self harm ever. Because , now I am older, I feel that I am too old to be doing this behavior , and need to stop , stop maiming myself , and causing such horriffic injuries. But, it does not stop. Most people , who do not know me, strangers , never reaslise the injuried are self inflicted , that is how bad this is for me. I do not share with them the truth either. It takes me several months to recover from a severe self harming incident. So the point is to be careful, anything can happen, infection of the injury , or too many question people ask. So many people are aware of SI too. It can be all too embarrassing as well to explain those scars or cuts away. Hope things get better for you. mscat
a sinking soul		#5	[-]
Posts: 30 (11/12/09 15:56:21) Reply Quote More My Recent Posts Message Me Connection Blocking Invite Ignore User's Posts Report Post	im so sorry to hear u severly self harm cath37, self harming intense or not is not the best way to go about problems, it is a momentary solution, i to self harm, though it is lesser and lesser,as i feel it rectifies nothing, i see no point, i have tried to en end my life so many times, and always with out success, i find the only option left for me is to breathe and carry on, it may be hard, and i sincerely relate to ur feeling lonely, i to get deep bouts of sadness, and loneliness, but talking about your problems is the a good starting place, can u talk to a family friend, or a family member, or a close friend or a doctor?xxx hold in there.xx

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