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Hello everybody. Nice to know, that i'm not the only one, but also really really sad, that other people are going through the same thing. Just want to wish you all luck. with everything. um, yesterday i hit the bottom line. Have never done something like that before. CAUTION: post has possible triggers. overdose, self-harm, eating disorder, general sulkiness. I overdosed, sliced my legs to pieces and, well, wanted to kill myself really much. I understand how stupid it all was, but, i want to do it all over again, because now i feel even worse. I felt like everybody around hate me and it will be better to die, because i'm such worthless person, which can't do anything right. and i will only bother others, so they will be glad, when i'm not around anymore. i cried at my psychologist room. i scrapped my arm in front of her. my whole family was angry with me. and it was my fault. i just. now i'm panicking, because i'm so crazy. i just. i'm afraid that i will lose any contact with reality and just will be drowning deeper and deeper in *this*. and i really think about options of suicide, because then, it all will end, and i'll not need to deal with it. my eating disorder issues are again active. i have compulsive overeating. and well, not anorexia, because i'm too worthless and fat for anorexia, but something remotely similar. i have, well 50 cuts. it hurts to move very much. i'm depressed. and i don't have anybody to talk to. my psychologist possibly hate me, after i phoned her yesterday, when i overdosed. i feel trapped. just, needed to talk about it. i mean, nobody around me has never done anything like that. it's just me. always me. um, sorry, for such post. it's just that i don't know where else to write. thanks for reading.