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OK here the thing I'm 17 I'm diagnosed with lead poisoning when i was a toddler and I'm ADHD. I just got out of the hospital for overdosing on 60 pills for 7 days over a boy that i like and that no one ever sticks up for me not my older brother or my step brother or my little brother or my mom or my dad b/c the guy i like his friend of mine that i knew for a while has been saying i have been saying that we have been cuddling on his couch whatching a movie and hes 22 and i'm 17 but i told my mom hes 18 but i overdosed on a lot of different reasons b/c i'm depressed and angry all the time i just realized that i have been angry and depressed ever since my parents seperated when i was 13 and now there trying to file devorced papers and i also juts realize when i was 7 i've been depressed for like a 2 years then i stopped being depessed b/c i forgave my older brother for molesting me but some part of kme can't forgive him b/c hes suppose to be my older brother to protect me and to keep me safe and all that ...... All the things i tried to kill myself was that i'm a cutter and i overdose on pills and i tried to hang myslef once i try ever possible way to kill myself but now i just don't know what to do with my life anymore i want to stay a live and i don't wanna kill myself but every time someone makes me mad or depressed i just don't think what i'm doing and i try to kill myself or i just cut myself to make myslef feel better. So i just got out of Park Center Behavoral and i'm on a pass and i'm trying my best to stay out of there and at 7 tonight if i don't think of suicide or try to harm myself i won't be able to go back. does anybody have any suggestions what i can do to try to stop harming myself