yay! LB got it.. b u means *be you*
just thought i would shorten to something clever...
just thought i would shorten to something clever...
take these broken wings and learn to fly again. Learn to feel so free.
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who B U ?
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 angel with battered wings |
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Hope61 |
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Posts: 929 (01/20/07 05:26:26) |
Thanks LB and Angel, I couldn't work out what on earth it meant! Sorry to be so stupid.
Hope |
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nimo82 |
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Posts: 595 (01/20/07 16:55:00) |
Don't worry Jenny. . .
When I was going to school I would fail out semester or two and then try again. I took a while off and worked for a while too, but I finally made it. I remember sitting in my doctor's office crying after a failed semester begging her to help me go to school. I felt like a failure and was so ashamed of myself. So it turns out I had ADD as well. And between not being able to concentrate and not going to class to kind of self-destruct I was doomed. I starting taking a med called strattera and found that I actually did my homework and made it to class on time. I was amazed. It took me 6yrs to finally get out of school, but I finished 3yrs worth of classes in 2yrs by going to school during the Summers too and taking 15yrs a semester. When you finish it will feel so good. P.S- I am not so high powered, but hey. . . my title sounds cool. . .lol. I am working on getting an internship with a women's Magazine here in Louisville, so I might have to go back to working an hourly job in the evenings so that I can work for them during the day, but I think it will be totally worth it if I can get it. Keep your fingers crossed! Oh, what's your major? Nina |
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jenlyn1976 |
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Posts: 141 (01/20/07 23:18:56) |
NINA---You have add and bpd? that sucks. i have bpd and depression, so whenever i get depressed or my bulimia acts up real bad i find it hard to go to classes. one time i went in to take a test and could not understand any of the questions. i freaked and walked out. luckily she let my make it up! but when i do go to class i make pretty good grrades.
My major right now is paralegal. i originally wanted to go to law school but that's not really feasible. i'm thinking of changing my major to psychology since i spen all my free time looking up stuff on mental health! i just love doing research (nerd). the magazine thing sounds cool. what's the name of it? (if you don't wanna say b/c of privacy reasons i understand, i was just curious if i had heard of it!) "The truth about childhood is stored up in our body, and although we can repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated, our perceptions confused, and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill "
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nimo82 |
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Posts: 595 (01/21/07 16:14:37) |
Hey,
Jenny. . .I can relate. I can remember going to classes and being handed a test not knowing we were even having one. I got up to go to the bathroom and never went back! The Magazine is called Today's Women. It is a little bit local, so you might not have heard of it, but I am working on my resume. . .I have a couple of pubs under my belt right now, but my goal is to work for something like Jane MAgazine someday. . . maybe. I thought about law school for a while my self. I lived in DC last Summer when I was working for Ms. Magazine and talked with all kinds off law students. What I gathered was that you have to make sure law school is what you really want to do before you do it. I totally agree on the pysch thing. . .lol. Maybe I should be a shrink too! Nina 
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jenlyn1976 |
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Posts: 141 (01/21/07 21:54:49) |
NIna,
OMG you worked for Ms. Magazine? That's soooo cool! Did you ever meet Steinem? I love that mag. Have you ever heard of Bitch magazine? It come from san fran so maybe not, but it's a great mag. They actually have a section where they critique Jane every month. It's pretty funny. Pick it up if you ever see it, it's totally worth it! "The truth about childhood is stored up in our body, and although we can repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated, our perceptions confused, and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill "
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nimo82 |
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Posts: 595 (01/22/07 15:11:57) |
Hey Jenny,
Yeah I have def. heard of Bitch. . .I had a friend who interned there the Summer I was at Ms. and we had it at school. . .I was a women's studies major. I am so glad to hear that there is a fellow feminist on the board  Steinem never came to the office or anything, but I met alot of other cool people like Ellie Smeal the president of the feminist majority (who owns Ms.) and some congresswomen and I heard Hillary and Joh Kerry speak. Alot of awesome stuff happened. It was kind of rough moving up there. It took me 10hrs to drive there from KY and I only took the stuff that would fit in my Cavalier. I didn't know my roommates or anything. . .but it was definetly worth it. I encourage anyone to apply to intern there. .. the also have an office in Beverly Hills. . .but if I lived there I would live in a shoe box. lol. Thanks for posting Nina |
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angel with battered wings |
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Posts: 1441 (01/22/07 19:27:45) |
i LOVEe JAne mad. that is so cool.. i never read MS gonna have to try it out.
take these broken wings and learn to fly again. Learn to feel so free.
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sparrowfart |
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Posts: 10 (01/23/07 10:08:49) |
 So this is where I introduce myself ! NAME:kate AGE:early 30's D.O.B:I'm a scorpio HOMETOWN:rural N.S.W (australia) HERITAGE:irish PETS:cornish rex cat "Tippie" jack russel dog"Spot" grey tomcat "Oscar",he was a stray I fed and kept,Tippie I adopted. FAVE MUSIC:Frank Sinatra,Dean Martin,Willie Nelson,Bowie ,Joplin,Roy Orbison(yeah it's all daggy!) OCCUPATION:I'm an artist currently working with aboriginal women and underprivileged white women. FAVE FOOD  orterhouse steak+pepper sauceFAVE HOBBY:reading trashy novels lol(love horror books!)and trashy t.v MOST 'MISSED MEMORY':the last time I saw my sister alive BEST FRIEND:my partners ex wife.we hated each other for 4 yrs,it made me a very ugly person so we agreed to coffee, got to talking and now we are like sisters,nearly 2 yrs on.(longest running friendship 4 me ever!) HOW LONG AGO DIAG WITH BPD:6 yrs but only'found out about it'18mths ago by 'mistake'on the net.Lol, I thought borderline meant I was on "the border of having a PD "lol STAGE OF RECOVERY:meds ok;tegretol+effexor-rages subsiding and much fewer-no pot for 3mths-no alcohol at all for 6mths-parenting better-moods more stable but fear and anxiety and anger still persist regularly though doesn't disable me-STILL HOPEFUL!! WHY I JOINED SITE:learn more about bpd,vent my fears and frustrations,interact with others I can identify with. AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST:2 amazing kids,1 supportive but weary partner,1 eating disorder,PTSD,1 sister lost to suicide,2 surviving sisters(no contact over 3yrs)1 brother(no contact 3yrs)1bio mother(no contact 5yrs exc 1 phone call)1 bio dad(4-5 calls 3yrs no other contact)no contact with rest of family..nana,grandad,aunties,uncles,cousins in 8+yrs. 
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jenlyn1976 |
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Posts: 141 (01/25/07 13:46:53) |
Sparrow---i hve a jack russell named jane (well she's with my husband, we're separated). Anyway she's a total spaz, but really adorable! I miss her!!!
"The truth about childhood is stored up in our body, and although we can repress it, we can never alter it. Our intellect can be deceived, our feelings manipulated, our perceptions confused, and our body tricked with medication. But someday the body will present its bill "
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Wisdom19572003 |
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Posts: 3896 (01/28/07 01:26:35) Registered User |
Name: Wisdom
Gender: Female Age: 49 Birthday: December 31, 1957 Birthplace: Nebraska Current Location/hometown: New England Eye Color: blue Hair Color: Blonde going gray Height: 5'8" Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Your Heritage: German Your Weakness: Too many to name Your Perfect Pizza: I hate pizza Your favorite type of music: World music or Buddhist chants/mantra's Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Join a Sangha Thoughts First Waking Up: Gezzz.. they are fighting again! Your Bedtime: Between 1 - 3am Your Most Missed Memory: Memories are just memories. Unless I'm working with a memory then they belong in the past. Nothing is missed. Number of things in my Past I Regret: Number of things? I don't regret Why are you here: Fellowship of other ppl with mental illness. How long have you known you have BPD: I don't have bpd. I have bipolar I and PTSD What stage of recovery are you in: Stage? Like Stage #1 or Stage # 2 ?? I am stable but not entirely symptom free. *****"I CRIED BECAUSE I HAD NO SHOES. THEN I MET A MAN WHO HAD NO FEET."*****
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Posts: 82 (01/29/07 09:58:58) |
I'll be back when I have more time and SEroquel isn't
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navarone2006 |
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Posts: 101 (01/31/07 17:49:31) |
And here is me..
Name: Billy Age: 41 Birthday: Sept 7 Birthplace: Bristol, England Current Location/hometown: Bath England Eye Colour: Green brown Hair Colour: Dark Height: 6 ft Right Handed or Left Handed: both Your Heritage: British Your Weakness: me Your Perfect Pizza: thin n crispy cheese n tom with extra mushrooms n garlicÂ….mmmmm want one right now!! Interests: running, weights, sketching, Your favorite type of music: Ska, ambient funky stuff, classical, tons of stuff Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to be able to have the tools to lead a normal life without the ups and downs Thoughts First Waking Up: This is going to be a better day! Your Bedtime: Usually inbetween 10-2am (depending on mood and brain activity at the time) pj`s on, cup of warm milk and hope to dear god that tomorrow is better than today or the same if I have had a good day. Your Most Missed Memory: having my son with me 24/7 , waking up and knowing he is with me and in the same building as me at some point every day, the family dog bounding around the bed with me, my son and ex all laughing together, being a family. Number of things in my Past I Regret: my entire life is full of regret but I choose not to dwell on that but look to the future with resolve Why are you here: To see how other people deal with the condition and learn and offer support from my experiences if anyone relates to them. How long have you known you have BPD: 7 months What stage of recovery are you in: I believe I am out of the crisis phase that I was in, the times that I wanted to end it all, have been free from s.i for about 2 months, doing cbt therapy and on meds. Once upon a time I was a highly sociable character and now in a very isolated stage. My picture: |
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Posts: 0 (02/07/07 21:46:27) |
ame: Hannah
Age:16 Birthday: January 12 Birthplace: Hamilton,NZ Current Location/hometown: Foxton,NZ Eye Color: Bue Hair Color: Black but going Purple soon Height: 5'4 Right Handed or Left Handed: Righty Your Heritage: I am Kiwi Your Weakness: Everything Your Perfect Pizza: A no calorie pizza Your favorite type of music:Emo,Goth,Punk generally any depressing music. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Try and make it at school Thoughts First Waking Up: another day in hell...whatss the point Your Bedtime: whenever my insomnia will let me fall asleep Your Most Missed Memory: Old friends and family and friends who have died Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to count Why are you here? To make friends and meet others with BPD How long have you known you have BPD? I was diagnosed a month ago now. What stage of recovery are you in?Im not ready for recovery at the moment,I have tried but i alwys fail so i dont see the point in trying anymore.I suffer from Depression,BPD,Anorexia with Bulimia tendencies and I am a self harmer so theres no much point in recovery when i have so much to deal with I just dont have the strength to do it anymore... |
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nimo82 |
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Posts: 595 (02/08/07 13:24:47) |
Hi Hannah,
I know sometimes it really seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I know I felt that way when I was 16. What's positive is that you are still young. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 19 going on 20 and now I am 24. I believe that recovery depends on the effort you put into it. You were only diagnosed a month ago and with time recovery is possible. I know this because I am finally in the last stages of recovery. You can make it too. Being a teenager is hard enough without the added problems of BPD and depression etc. Things will get better with treatment and time. Don't give up hope. Nina 
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machineoperatedgirl |
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Posts: 1 (02/09/07 01:40:33) |
Name: Machine
Age: Seventeen Birthday: January 3rd, 1990 Birthplace: Biddeford, Maine Current Location/hometown: I haven't gone anywhere. Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Dark Brown [Dyed Blue-Black] Height: 5'3" Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed Your Heritage: I'm a Frenchie Your Weakness: Perfection Your Perfect Pizza: Extra cheese, No sauce. Your favorite type of music: It depends on my mood. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To get a job at some point, move out of the house, and do something constructive. Thoughts First Waking Up: I wonder if I should stay home today.. Your Bedtime: There is no specified time for me. Your Most Missed Memory: Chatting and being close with certain friends that I don't really get to talk to anymore. Number of things in my Past I Regret: There are lots of things I regret, but I doubt I'd take them back. Why are you here? To find out more about BPD. How long have you known you have BPD? I don't know if I actually have it. I am just under the suspicion that I do. What stage of recovery are you in? [Unavailable] |
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nimo82 |
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Posts: 595 (02/09/07 09:33:24) |
Welcome to the board Machine
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bpdkitty |
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Posts: 571 (02/18/07 00:12:13) |
Name: Bpdkitty
Age: 30 Birthday: January 15 Birthplace: Long Island, NY Current Location/hometown: Ended up right back where I started Eye Color: Blue Hair Color: Dark Blonde Height: 5'2" Right Handed or Left Handed: Left Handed Your Heritage: German, British, Polish Your Weakness: Everything Your Perfect Pizza: NY Pizza. NY generally sucks but it has great pizza. Your favorite type of music: I love most types of music (well except gansta rap and twangy country and "boy bands") My favorite artists are Tori Amos, Sarah McLachlan, Loreena McKennitt, and Evanescence. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: What does it matter? I never achieve any goals. I'd like to save some money. I'd like to meet someone I could marry. Thoughts First Waking Up: Damn! Another day I didnt die in my sleep! Your Bedtime: Usually around 11 or 11:30. Your Most Missed Memory: Being able to believe that things would get better someday- the hopefulness of youth. Number of things in my Past I Regret: Everything. My biggest regret is going to law school. I ruined my life with that one, horrible decision. Other regrets: not taking advantage of it when I was young and pretty. Wasting my life going to school instead of just having fun. Why are you here? I used to come here alot. It was a place to talk to people. I have no friends "in real life." How long have you known you have BPD? About 5 years. What stage of recovery are you in? None. I dont ever get any better. Isnt that hopeful. Bpdkitty
"Years go by will I choke on my tears until finally there is nothing left. One more tragedy you know we're too easy..." |
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Borderline One |
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Posts: 872 (02/18/07 00:47:28) |
Name: Christina
Age:45 Birthplace: Oregon Eye Color: brown Hair Color: Brown Height: 5' Right Handed or Left Handed: left Your Heritage: NA Your Weakness: not taking care of myself Your Perfect Pizza: veggie supreme Your favorite type of music: Anything but country Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: HEAL oughts First Waking Up: How long till I get to come back here? Your Bedtime: 10ish Number of things in my Past I Regret: too many Why are you here? support and info How long have you known you have BPD? 2 days What stage of recovery are you in? Infant 
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Feasul |
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Posts: 26 (02/25/07 14:10:20) |
Name: Vanessa (Feasul)
Age: 21 Birthday: November 1 Birthplace: Memphis, TN Current Location/hometown: Paris, MS Eye Color: Blue/Brown Hair Color: Dark Blonde Height: 5'9" Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed Your Heritage: No idea, I think I'm just a mutt : ) Your Weakness: Fantasy....and People Your Perfect Pizza: Veggie Pizza! Your favorite type of music: Almost anything except Country and Southern Gospel (shiver)... I like celtic, classic, current rock and roll, old rock and roll, christian contempoary, pop, some hip hop,etc....Current Fave Bands: The Fray, The Dispatch, Nickelback Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: I want to finish this semester with out my life falling apart from the stress and with good grades...Be great if I could finally pick a major too Thoughts First Waking Up: I hate mornings! I hate early classes! I hate going to work before noon!!! Your Bedtime: Any time from 10pm-2AM... really sporadic Your Most Missed Memory: Feeling like I belonged... like I had a big family and I was safe Number of things in my Past I Regret: Allowing men to take advantage of my neediness, being needy, hurting people around me, lost chances Why are you here? For the community... I have no one I can talk to about this stuff where I live.... can't even find a therapist...And I'm one of those people who are desperate for human contact How long have you known you have BPD? I found out October of last year so... 5 Months What stage of recovery are you in? Not sure I'm in recovery... Still just trying to figure out how to roll with the punches |
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