Hello everyone...I am a 21 yr old mother to 2 yr old twin boys. I was diagnosed with BPD about 7 years ago but never put much stock into it because it was still a very general "label" then..I've reread things about it more recently and it definitely fits.
I don't really know what I want to say in this post but I don't have anyone to talk to and I'm feeling very hopeless..recently I can barely cope with every day life and and have been a SAHM of my twins since they were born and within the last month I've just become so overwhelmed that I can't even usually get up in the morning to take care of them. They are my babies...they don't understand why mommy's barely there for them anymore...they need me. I'm trying to get back to a "normalcy" state that I was at for the almost two years after my pregnancy but I just can't seem to cope with anything recently. I don't know what to do.
I feel so much guilt for not being there for them like I should be and I see the sadness in their eyes when they cry, "mama, see mama" and I just walk away because I can't deal with it and it kills me but I can't bring myself to be there for them all of the time especially when they are needing me the most. What kind of mother does that to her babies?
I am so lost right now and I feel so very alone and I needed to reach out for something, hence why I'm writing here now.
Does anyone else have kids under the age of 5 and if so what is life like for you living with your BPD and raising young children? How do you cope, what do you do when you feel severely overwhelmed? Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I feel like a horrible mom.
Thanks for listening..
I don't really know what I want to say in this post but I don't have anyone to talk to and I'm feeling very hopeless..recently I can barely cope with every day life and and have been a SAHM of my twins since they were born and within the last month I've just become so overwhelmed that I can't even usually get up in the morning to take care of them. They are my babies...they don't understand why mommy's barely there for them anymore...they need me. I'm trying to get back to a "normalcy" state that I was at for the almost two years after my pregnancy but I just can't seem to cope with anything recently. I don't know what to do.
I feel so much guilt for not being there for them like I should be and I see the sadness in their eyes when they cry, "mama, see mama" and I just walk away because I can't deal with it and it kills me but I can't bring myself to be there for them all of the time especially when they are needing me the most. What kind of mother does that to her babies?
I am so lost right now and I feel so very alone and I needed to reach out for something, hence why I'm writing here now.
Does anyone else have kids under the age of 5 and if so what is life like for you living with your BPD and raising young children? How do you cope, what do you do when you feel severely overwhelmed? Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I feel like a horrible mom.
Thanks for listening..
