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I would like to know what DBT is? Maybe I need to buy a book on it or something. Usually when I look it up mostly I just get a synopsis. Is it something you just have to go to? I have had counselors ever since I was little. Didnt realize things were getting worse until I got into high school. I pretty much alienated any friends I had, got pissed off at all my counselors eventually, I dont talk to my family anymore. okay so some good stuff now is I recognize the zany things I do. I see when im getting out of control and impatient. My mind is going million miles an hour and doesnt seem like its gonna slow down. Sometimes I'll stay inside because I feel I cant be around people. I have a great boyfriend now. I never thought I could be with someone. We might have to take time outs but we make it work. Maybe its not the healthiest relationship but I already know im miles away from where I first started. I'll never forget when I was having panic attacks so bad and a therapist said take one second at a time. Longest time I was like, what kind of crap advice is that. All be darned if it didnt eventually sink in. I think a lot of people especially with mental dissabilities (however it is you like to phrase that) can be resistant to treatment. Its really hard listening to people tell you things you dont want to always hear. Lot harder coming from someone who doesnt have say bpd like you do. People can say what they want but your gonna get it in your time that is if you do. I think I might finally be in a place where I could possibly be open to DBT I would have laughed at it and cursed everyone out a few years back. See wonders never cease.