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1- I am 21
2- I use to be a pentacostal christian
3- I have fibromyalgia
4- I've had the diagnosis of bpd thrown around since i was a kid, being told "You don't want to turn out to be a borederline" truth is, I'm already there.
5- I have a cat named Spoons.
6- I smoke, which I took up to help focus my thoughts (bpd?)
7- I'm actually a writer, however, I have problems publishing my work since the imparing judgement that will come down on my head if anybody actually read what goes through my head.
8- I have a sudo name
9- I live with my dying grandmother, however I've been trying to move out, since being the primary caregiver, I believe some other people in my family should step up to the plate.
10- I have never tried to kill myself. However, I have cut down to the bone on occation.
11- I hate councillors, in fact, I dispise them so much that I find myself lying to them to just to get them to leave me alone
12 I just applied at a local gas station, where my future boss made some comments about there being way more to me than the facade I keep showing... and all I wanted to say is, yah... and whats that to you?
13- I have a horrible fear of failing, and since my fibro, I've had to take this fear head on. I've had to realize that faluire is a part of my life, and I can't always do what I want... litterally I just can't.
14- I have a younger sister, who's a preacher, and a younger brother, who's a genius. I guess I'm the rebel.
15- I smoke weed everyday - and it's for medical reasons, my doctor told me to keep it up.
16- I started smoking cigarettes when my doctor told me weed smoke is worse for my lungs, since I'm accustom to smoking weed all day, I slowed down by substituting tobacco - to logically at the time, minamalize health problems, and here I am now, a full time smoker.
17- I have ptsd, however, I'm not about to talk about it, it no longer controls my life, and if I delve any deeper it might again.
18- I have chronic anxiety, which I've learned to keep in check by positive reinforcement.. recognizing it before it becomes a problem.
19- All I ever really wanted was somebody to actually listen to me, not just hear what I have to say.
20- I'm a master relationship destroyer, in fact, I avoid most relationships all together because I've realize the outcomes are usually less than satisfying.
21- I live on an island, in a town of less than 500 people, there are only a couple people here my age who aren't born again christians, and those who are, are either paired up or got kids.
22- My best friend has a two year old, who I love as much as if he was my own kid. But god, I wish he'd start talking and stop whining lol.
23- I don't believe in God, on any level. I believe that there is a spiritual aspect to human nature, and we all express it in different ways. Spiritually, I express myself through writing, it's when I have the clearest understanding and introspection.
24- about 5 months ago I lost every friend I ever had and my house because of a bad break up, and I'm still kicking myself, since I blame the whole thing on my inability to hold any relationship, specially intimate ones.
25- I was seriously sick for six months and incapable of even completing simple tasks, and stairs were a nightmare. I lost my job because of my illness, and even now I struggle to work part time.


And, this explains me a little bit I think :P