Borderline and Bipolar

im lost... confused... and overwhelmed

feeds@yuku.com (indi500) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 13:45:34 GMT

lets see... i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a year or so ago. last month, after my 2nd stay in the hospital in 2 months, they diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder also. i never know what im going to feel like from one minute to the next. i have insane mood swings... they thought i was rapid cycling during my first hospital stay... on top of all these mood swings, i do get manic sometimes... it lasts a lot longer... right now, i cant sleep, my mind races all night long... i...

Newly Diagnosed... How do I tell my husband? Help?

feeds@yuku.com (cassiel) — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 00:35:34 GMT

I've always been tortured and had problems. Some which were obvious to my husband, others which I've been able to hide from him... Recently, my symptoms have completely taken over my life to the point that I had no alternative but to seek help.

I hid my appointments from my husband, I just couldn't admit to him, like always, how bad everything is. My psychiatrist has diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder/Social Anxiety Disorder, and...

Personal responsiblity and BPD

feeds@yuku.com (Frammm) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 22:55:52 GMT

Do people that experience BPD have problems taking responsibility for their actions? I believe my wife has BPD although she has not been diagnosed, she refuses to be honest with her therapist, at least as far as I can tell.

What I experience;
Love to hate at the drop of a hat, it doesn't make sense.
Yell and scream, get mean, I respond (badly, responding ) all she remembers is my part, story she tells starts in the middle or near the end. Seems to have no idea what she...

Dissociation and Borderline

feeds@yuku.com (nobodyatall) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 17:11:17 GMT

Hello, I think this one is more to do with borderline than bi polar but I thought I would ask around. I have both. How many other people experience dissociation? Does anyone ever 'check out' when they are stressed or confronted with something they can't handle? I do it a lot, lose some time when stressed. Even things in film have the potential to trigger me. But the time I lose is typically only a few minutes. Can anyone relate? Also do you have any other forms of dissociation?...

Anyone else find this exhausting

feeds@yuku.com (lister74) — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 17:30:36 GMT

Hi, Im new here.
Just thought I would ask if everybody finds living with this as exhausting as I do. My insurance won't pay for my therapy so I had to quit, I'm running out of Meds, though there is a part of me that can't wait for the highs again. And between work, kids, and a wife going through nursing school I'm getting run way too down. I don't want to fall back into the too lows again, I was there too long last time. Is there any affordable help out their,...

relationships!

feeds@yuku.com (lolamotel) — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 11:13:46 GMT

i broke up with my boyfriend twice and now we are hanging out again. i don't know if it's the bpd or that he really isn't for me. he has bipolar disorder to, so his moods swing. i have trouble dealing even though people need to deal with similar behavoir from me. most of the time i love him so much, except when we fight. then i want to run away. anyone feel similarly?

Does Anyone Else Have Trouble Keeping a Job

feeds@yuku.com (nobodyatall) — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 20:00:45 GMT

Hi, I have bi polar and I have just found out I have BPD too. I found out be researching a different personality disorder that a good friend has and stumbled across a discription of everything that has ever been wrong with my destructive behavour in my life and it was labeled BPD. I have never been able to keep a job and have survived by doing things like property development. Artistic endevours (usually these don't pay thought), temp jobs that I am well underqualified for, and begging...

can bi-polar (especially typeII)evidence mania...in an aggressive combative way ?

feeds@yuku.com (myriad15) — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 11:57:39 GMT

can bi-polar (especially type-II)evidence mania...in an aggressive combative way ? rather than the wonderful ,its a rush, great feeling albeit slightly psychotic way that is commonly thought of when one talks of a manic episode.
i had pretty much left the secondary dx in the past thinking that cyclic depression is far better a description with no mania...but i do have these periods where i go ..off...I'm paranoid i act out im in full combat mode in terms of reading the worst in every...

Changed my meds

feeds@yuku.com (rayvenmoon29) — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 08:08:33 GMT

They had to change my meds cause the insurance wouldn't pay for my lexapro but I still feel like this isn't working for me I hate that it takes so long to get the right mix of meds to help. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has gone through this but I feel so alone in this battle. I'm mad cause I feel like my psych. doesn't really listen to me but I don't want to change docs so I am taking my husband with me to my next apt. maybe he can help explain my behavior. So...

new and lonely

feeds@yuku.com (astoria13) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:56:05 GMT

I have a lot of trouble with the love hate relationships I develop. Want to be "normal" but guess that won't ever happen so I have been told. Walking helped but then I would get manic. Now I am disabled partly physically so I have lost my one outlet. Anybody who would just care enough to listen and understand would be nice to find.

Lost and scared

feeds@yuku.com (rayvenmoon29) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:29:04 GMT

I was diagnosed with bpd and bipolar disorder a few weeks ago and I feel so lost and scared. I can't stop all the nonsense in my head and I just really wanted to know that I'm not alone. I have read alot of posts and it helps to know it's not just me who seems to feel all these things. My husband tries so hard to put up with me and today he is the good guy but I will see what tomorrow brings. It could even change before then I never know and I love him so much that sometimes I get...

aching and lonely

feeds@yuku.com (DissolvedGirl278) — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 00:56:14 GMT

i hate myself so much for pushing everyone away. im aching so much for the ones i've lost from my life, whether by circumstance or by my own hand. i'm so lonely, so desperate for those close relationships i used to have. now i really understand why im so unhappy. it seems so obvious but i could never put my finger on it. everything feels wrong now. and no one new is coming into my life, and i know it's because its not meant to be. why did i have to screw up what life gave me? i...

KEEPIN FRIENDSHIPS HEALTHY

feeds@yuku.com (chris3xp) — Tue, 19 May 2009 11:56:30 GMT

Ive come to grips with my loneliness, to paint my picture i would paint a man thats alone 24/7 lost all reason to leave to wonder the outside world for fear of getting close and lossing someone else. Its the hardest thing i think with BPD as im soo sensitive the slightiest wrong thing said or did, turns my opinion of you and u change from friend to enemy like a switch i have some people i can associate with but the friendship...

Cry for help!!!

feeds@yuku.com (princesslulu) — Thu, 14 May 2009 04:12:46 GMT

I am new and this is hard for me but this is a cry for help... I live with BPD and I am on Topamax which helps with my moodswings but I feel like I am falling down a dark pit and no one is there to understand what I am going through. I dont know how open these discussions are so please let me know before I continue...

Thanks x

hopeless and sad

feeds@yuku.com (MommaC412) — Thu, 07 May 2009 22:12:46 GMT

im new to this and really just need advice.. i am diagnosed bi-polar and borderline with severe depression and anxiety. i take geodon, prozac, and vistaril. i dont feel much better and im worried because my dr just doesnt seem to understand how severe my panic attacks and moods are.. does anyone know which meds work well? im just so lost and i cant take it anymore..i feel like a burden to my husband and family...

BPD Resources

feeds@yuku.com (Atchoo) — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 20:35:44 GMT

Hey out there in internet land! Im just wondering if anyone has any online reading material that they use for help, understanding, and healing.

Howdy All

feeds@yuku.com (Atchoo) — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 06:32:01 GMT

Okay, so I'm new here and hoping to find some like souls to talk to. I was diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar about two years ago. Going to the psychiatrist was an ultimatum given to me by my girlfriend of 7 years after a particularly scary bout of self mutilation . For years we had been dealing with my problem without ever having a name for it. Well, getting diagnosed and medication gave us a face to...

new here...not sure if it will help at all

feeds@yuku.com (annieboo) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 10:45:38 GMT

So I guess I have BPD and bipolar 2. Its hard to tell because I always have so much going on in my life that I think maybe other people just make me crazy. I'm sure that's not true though. I have only been taking medicine for a few months, I hate to take medication. I am just having a really rough time right now. I miss people that I know in my heart are bad for me but I got so used to relying on them that I don't know who else to talk to.

Been BPD for a while, BP II since Friday

feeds@yuku.com (AutumnSkies) — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:23:55 GMT

Hey
So, Ive been dealing with BPD for a while, and that hit me pretty hard my therapy for that with my last therapist was really intense, and just the whole finding resolve in having it was incredibly hard for me. I went through so many lengths to do that. That happened in september, I was dx. Now last friday, I sit with my new therapist and she goes over the DSM with me, and dx me with BP II, and tells me to tell my psych I fit BP II "hypermania" not really sure what that...

Hi! I'm new...

feeds@yuku.com (gklimt) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 16:01:49 GMT

Hey!

I'm new to this site and just wanted to post a quick note of introduction. I'm a guy with both BPD and BP type 1, so life is a little challenging most of the time, but the meds and friends help. I enjoy getting and sending mail so drop me a line sometime. I promise to answer all.

Later.