Borderline Personality Today Forum

Insecurity and Envy

feeds@yuku.com (loveisthecure5) — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 14:16:52 GMT

Does anyone else have this problem? And, if so, what have you done to get it under control?

I find myself get moody, competitive and maybe even vengeful due to deep insecurities. I compare myself to others all the time and I realized that alot of things I do are just to look a certain way in front of others. I will feel envious of accomplishments or behaviors which I truly don't even care about.Most things I do in vain but I have lost touch with what I want and most of what I...

Mental Health Activism

feeds@yuku.com (loveisthecure5) — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 10:23:21 GMT

I am looking to collaborate with other mental health activists. Message me if your interested! Thanks.

Dating

feeds@yuku.com (DissolvedGirl278) — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 01:18:03 GMT

Pretty much the HARDEST THING to do with BDP...i'm the only person i know who's single, because i drive away every guy i meet with my craziness and put downs and obsessions. i recently just drove away this super sweet guy because we ended up fighting and i got pretty downright nasty with him. now we are still talking but he doesn't want to be in a relationship anymore!! i'm so upset over it, i really was happy for once feeling all those wonderful emotions when a relationship...

Merry Christmas

feeds@yuku.com (scrip50) — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 20:24:11 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM DOWNUNDER. MAY 2010 BRING YOU PEACE, JOY & FULFILLMENT. Last night I ate dinner with 129 men, gentlemen all. Then I spent the rest of the night in conversation and laughter with two close friends. We watched the sun rise this morning. It's christmas day and I am not sad or haunted, I am content. This is health, this is recovery. i am going to hang on to it and celebrate every day gained. I wish the same for all who come here....

Back online

feeds@yuku.com (scrip50) — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 00:16:19 GMT

Had computer problems that kept me away for a month but I am back now. Doing fine, had a little depressive wobble that turned out to be hormonal. It's the Christmas season and I'm stable so that is saying something. Still using a combination of psych meds and supplements. Serequel down to 150mg and now cleared to start reducing this again in January. Will go a little slower this time as I am getting closer to where I experience symptoms. I hope you are all well and have to admit how...

plz help not relaly sure whats going on

feeds@yuku.com (Vapour) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 15:11:29 GMT

Hey all. Nice to be a part of this forum.

I will try and make such a complicated history short. When I was 21 years old (I am 26 now) I had a very serious depression, it lasted a few months, a suicide attempt, put on meds. My GP at the time suspected Bipolar and wanted me to see a psychiatrist. I went to hte psychiatrist... he wanted to rule out epilepsy also. Living in the UK at the time I was on a waiting list for tests.. and moved here to the USA.

Since moving out here...

running away.

feeds@yuku.com (Syndica) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 02:53:54 GMT

hi,

i found out i am bipoler type 2, and BPD which causes me to see things or hear them, i had no idea what to do with this visions and seeing shadow figures which scares me. i went to a wicca forum and i found out that the shadows are called shadow people and they love to drain engative engeries, i was told they are bad news. i'v been on lithium for 3 months i also am so tired and i sleep all the time and i can't seem to stop sleeping all the time. i am not sure what to...

son of a bitch

feeds@yuku.com (Rylee) — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 20:19:02 GMT

I know no one here or anywhere really because I cannot 'connect' with others.
But today I am really alone and very hurt. Why would my therapist choose 3 days before Christmas to try to get my attention with words like:

I don't feel sad about the unhappy way you live; I can feel mad but I feel no empathy! I am unable to help you!

I wasn't just speechless; my lungs were burning presumably because I stopped breathing for so...

Wanting to Connect With Other Proactive People

feeds@yuku.com (loveisthecure5) — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 11:03:47 GMT

I would like to connect with other borderlines who are making an effort to improve their quality of life. I am very much into new age spirituality (deepak chopra,dr. wayne dyer,andrew cohen,ect) and personal growth. I want to "meet" positive, spiritual people, committed to personal growth.

I would like to share encouragement, insight, advice and consciousness.

Let's talk!

wanted to pop in.

feeds@yuku.com (heavy heart) — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 20:48:58 GMT

hiya!

wanted to pop in and see how everyone was doing. say hello to everyone who's been here for a long time [since you all know me!] and say welcome to all who is newer to the forum!!

i think last time i had written on here i had explained a certain terrible situation with hubby's one friend, that just beat me up emotionally and i had said how depressed i've been...
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Hating Myself

feeds@yuku.com (darkness on the edge of town) — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 19:26:13 GMT

I'm so wrapped up right now in self-hatred. I've gained 25 lbs in 2 years and my career is going nowhere. I'm frustrated cause I'm watching friends all around me being successful (musically) and I just keep getting passed over. My husband, my friends, and parents want me to keep trying, but I'm sick of the music industry, I've been trying for 13 years, I just want to go get my nursing degree. I can't stand the rejection anymore. I'm gonna give it one more try...

update

feeds@yuku.com (BPDpip) — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 03:20:31 GMT

I know, I haven't been back here in a while: synopsis: ex and I split, emotional meltdown, gradual return to sanity and now I am focusing on my own goals and dreams. I just finished taking the GRE and got the scores I needed for acceptance into graduate school. (Yeah! Checkmark one is completed. It is so still all about the baby steps. lol. ) I'm progressing on my goal of getting into graduate school and moving on to the next chapeter. In a nutshell ... lol

It's...

lusher test

feeds@yuku.com (Faceless) — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 21:23:41 GMT

Found this test today.There are two tests - full and shortcut.Im passed both.Shortcut showed me both of my

A question for all with BPD.

feeds@yuku.com (ahuman) — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 14:51:41 GMT

Hey all! I'm Ian and I have a question for you all. But first, I would like to give you a little background info to help you with you answer. I am 18 and have been in therapy and med management for 3 years now. I have never been formally diagnosed with anything billing me as "Unspecified mood disorder". I have had a very colorful childhood and this included my very negligent mother walking out when I was 6 and frequent violent arguments since before she left up until very...

I would greatly apprciate your help!

feeds@yuku.com (yv995) — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 03:22:52 GMT

Hi there, I am someone who is passionate about improving the lives of people with BPD. I've been working as a DBT therapist for the last few years, and now I'm trying to do some research into how people with BPD experience time alone. This research is unpaid (part of my doctorate in clinical psychology), but something I feel is very important. I would greatly appreciate your help because I need people diagnosed with borderline personality disorder to fill in my...

So Tired feeds@yuku.com (arctor) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 02:31:18 GMT First post. - I'm tired. Broke up w/gf six months ago. She was angry and both physically and emotionally abusive. Googling emotional abuse led me to believe that she may have a personality disorder, at first I felt it was BP. Anyways, all of this led me to start evaluating my own life, relationships, how I felt about other people. Take out the emotion, the reasons 'why' and all of that crap. Just writing down the facts, and I don't need a shrink to tell me. I'm the BP.... Anyone had ECT treament to treat BPD? feeds@yuku.com (atleastmydogluvsme) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 20:44:12 GMT Hi, I would like to hear from anyone who has had ECT treatment to treat BPD. I would appreciate you sharing your experience of ECT. Like: Why was ECT prescribed? What drugs were you taking when you received ECT treatment? What did the ECT treatement involve? How many sessions did you have? How often were you treated? How has it affected you in the short and long term? Do you think ECT treatment was beneficial or not? In other words, are you happy you... Recognizing Borderline Personality Disorder in Children feeds@yuku.com (TiredofThisGame) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:39:01 GMT Christmas Carols For The Disturbed feeds@yuku.com (TiredofThisGame) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 12:43:41 GMT Christmas Carols For The Disturbed * 1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear? * 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Kings Disoriented Are * 3. Dementia --- I Think I'll be Home for Christmas * 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me * 5. Manic - Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars... BPD Job Tips feeds@yuku.com (DN) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 01:36:06 GMT I'm starting a new job this week at the auto body shop my husband works with. The longest I've kept a job before is a year, and usually 6 months or under. He really wanted me to work here, and tomorrow is the 3rd day of training, so far so good. There is no way I'm going to be/feel incompetent at this job, I've had a career in the past and know I can handle it.. But I really think I need tips on not dissociating with people there, since I know that about 2 months in I'll...